So after last week’s effort in coming back to work, I’ve managed to get back to work 4/5 days. All through various modes of transportation, switching between buses and trains or a combination of both. It’s been a quite surreal experience as where I used to have panic attacks, I sit there wondering when it’s going to happen but it never eventuates. Today I was at the Chase, waiting to pick up my laptop from repair and I sat in the food court eating food wondering when the onset of panic would come and it never eventuated.
I had a farewell party this evening and as per normal I was doing my best not to go. I eventually got forced to going from my mate Tom who sms’d me and said he was on his way to pick me up. I grudgingly got up and got ready for his arrival. Surprise surprise I went to dinner, in a confined space as you are at dinners and survived it all. Went out for drinks afterwards and no ill feelings. It was quite something to be able to function normally again and not to have to worry. Mind you I did worry, but not enough to send me into a panic. It was a thoroughly pleasant experience and I can’t wait for more of them.
Work has been great as always and very supportive of me during this time. I plan on going back to work on Monday, however the only thing I have a problem with is sleep. The antidepressants seem to have me wired up so much that I wake at the sound of a needle dropping. Any noise at all will wake me instantly and it takes some time for me to get back to sleep. Most mornings I wake up feeling as though I had around one or two hours of sleep when I had been in bed for almost ten. It’ll be interesting to see how I’ll fare next week, but I do intend to get back to normal work balance as soon as I can. For now, it’s a big thumbs up and another speed hump passed. Thanks to everyone for all their support 🙂